friend
The energy from your new space has followed me to this moment. Restive, anxious, and increasinlgy impatient, I sit at my quiet desk hopping from one distraciton to the next – failing to move forward from this familiar daze. The shoulda, coulda, wouldas come pooring out after being around you. Although my optimism and clarity has been fluctuating since the end of those formative years, I experience a specific version of empathy and perplexity when I’m in your presence: feeling incapable of saying enough and being enough to help better anything. I shrink every time, small and quiet. Thank you for making me feel needed, even when I prolonged the wait for your true comfort.
I don’t really miss the way things used to be any more. Now I’m filled with this incessant longing for change – with less routine misery and more life, and a day when you and I have a deeper stronger, balanced connection.
